Wandering..

So I know I haven't written in a while but I suppose my mind has been wandering for months and now I am ready to put something down. I am actually working on something but it will take a few days to get down. Remember I am not a writer, but someone who processes outwardly. Blogging is like a journal where you can write the thoughts you want to share. So please keep waiting... be patient with me...

Fear

I am realizing how much fear has controlled my life... it makes you unable to function, to be vulnerable, and to love.“To love at all is to be vulnerable. Love anything, and your heart will certainly be wrung and possibly broken. If you want to make sure of keeping it intact, you must give your heart to no one, ... Wrap it carefully round with hobbies and little luxuries; avoid all entanglements; lock it up safe in the casket or coffin of your selfishness. But in that casket- safe, dark, motionless, airless--it will change. It will not be broken; it will become unbreakable, impenetrable, irredeemable.” (CS Lewis) Thank you Jesus that your perfect love casts out my fears and allows me to rest. Soften my heart of stone that I may see you move and have your way in my life. I don't want to get it the way....

"Savior, Prince, enthroned above,

Repentance to impart,

Give me, through Thy dying love,

The humble, contrite heart;

Give what I have long implored,

A portion of Thy love unknown;

Turn, and look upon me, Lord,

And break my heart of stone."

~ Charles Wesley, 1749

Random Thoughts....

- Saw an old fashion BMW.. I think they are so cool! When I was little I (a girl) had a toy car collection. I loved cars. Still do.
- Saw a tall skinny man running today on Poplar Blvd. wearing hot pink jogging pants... Sorry dude but really?
- Finger crochet in a coffee shop drinking southern pecan blend coffee= relaxation
- New favorite phrase... "stream of consciousness"
- For the girls: I got this little notepad from my mom that says: "The bigger the handbag, the smaller your butt looks." Hope that made you chuckle.... ;)
- A man just walked in the room wearing a CROATIA hat on... wonder if he is from there or is a fan of the country... I don't think he had an accent
-Sho Baraka Concert was: Awesome, Challenging, Encouraging, Convicting, God Glorifying

- Bird Picture: The artist is brilliant I think. Is is at Sneaky Beans in Fondren. I want to buy it actually....It looks really funny at first but if you look closer I think it shows more emotion. It is possible that the artist is demonstrating human relationships. How often do we try and say how we feel but both of you are talking so much and not seeing and hearing what the other is feeling and saying OR conflict and fear overcome their love in such a way that they forget how they truly feel and then eventually fun away from it. Relationships/friendships are so messy. How often do our own personal motives get in the way. I think there is more.... I am still processing it.

Tell me what you think....

Hello

So yesterday morning I was driving early in the morning to my new job at Great Harvest Bread Co. and I decided something.... "I want to start a blog where I can write down my thoughts, opinions, interests, and life!" I am not a writer and won't try to be. I just want to engage and explore life in a different way..I want to share it with whoever wants to partake in my crazy mind...I welcome your opinions as well... more things to come.... Welcome to my new adventure. :)